| | Thank you -- Message flagged. | | | 15908 | | Its now the end of October 21 and I had to do some looking in the last few days. I miss you SJB, and I'm wounded that you don't share these feelings. I understand, it just hurts. I sometimes think that you think that I think (yes, I just did that, in print) you were a disposable person in my life. Hardly. All these years later I long to be in touch. | | | | | 15907 | | Well ... its not mid september 2021 and i did not too bad not thinking about you for a while - well i thought about you but i didn't creep you. I wonder if anyone even knows I write this and what they might think? Do they think that my longing is sweet and endearing because ( i hope) its obvious that i am harmless and not wanting to cause you trouble or concern or do they think i'm a psycho about to break loose. I assure you, not a psycho about to break loose. I broke your heart, and my own i guess, and the very last thing i want to do is cause you any kind of misery. It took a lot, but i found you and i love seeing you and hearing your voice. thats all. i miss you sjb. you said to me in one of your very last emails, 'i don't understand what you want.' i don't even know if i knew then, but I know now. I want you to know that i do now, and did then, care. you were never sport, some girl ... i think i'd like you to know that now 9 years later, i long for you, and wish we were friends. i wish i could participate in your life. post comments. make you laugh. let you know ... i told you i'd never love you. i told you that to protect myself and you. don't love me, it's pointless. well ... you were able to kick me to the curb, and i'm in love with you and it's been 9 years of unrequited love. maybe one day you'll know and maybe one day knowing will make you feel better. great bunny mask. | | | | | 15906 | | I have an asymmetrical haircut and drive a subaru crosstrek ... I fucking died laughing. | | | | | 15905 | | sometimes its worse than at other times ... right now, i have it bad. the sjbs. im learning to play this simple song, there is a line in it - oh baby just let go. That was the last thing you said, just. let. go. easy for you to say. | | | | | 15904 | | Sara I hope you're alright SJB. I've been a little less than great. I think I just want you to know, because I think it would surprise you, that you really mattered to me. That all these years later, the idea that you don't know that hurts me. I've been to ballgame there too by the way. | | | | | 15903 | | Damn.
I waited and wished ... you posted something about catching creeping exes on your profile ... And I'm gutted again. | | | | | 15902 | | ... and yet posting here is all I have. I have so many questions to ask, and so many things I want you to know. Sometimes I see that you're struggling a little, feeling down, jaded, unworthy. On those days I want to say to you - Hey, I think you're so worth knowing, I miss you so much that I have literally intruded on your life, secretly, just to feel close to you. I'm your biggest fan, I really miss you, I miss your friendship and your thoughts. I wish I could just pick up the phone. You're amazing, and probably waking up about now. | | | | | 15901 | | admittedly i feel foolish posting here - if anyone ever reads it, it isn't you but it makes me feel connected. So the other night because I am clumsy a little i accidentally liked something you posted ... I freaked out. Immediately undid it and then scoured google to see if you'd know. It suggested you'd know, if you were on the app. but that soon the notification would be deleted. I held my breath for days waiting to see that your profile had gone private ... Assuming that after you figured out that I had found you you'd shut the only door I have closed. So far so good. I look in every day, and I wish you were not hurting right now. I'm just pain, so you really don't have to worry about me making it worse. I'll love you from a distance, for like 9 years now. | | | | | 15900 | | you have no idea that i peek in. i feel a little shame about it. you posted about trolls and how you might have to make one of your profiles private ... that would cut me off and I felt some panic. It's about 730 in the morning where you are ... I guess you're moving around having coffee. | | | | | 15899 | | 9 years ago it was all still ok ... | | |
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