| | 10353 | | If only I could harness the utter resolute determination I have in this moment. | | | | | 10352 | | Sometimes I like to think to pretend om a girl. Only sometimes | | | | | 10351 | | I feel like have to take a path through life that will bring me close to, if not directly deposite me on, death's door. I feel I have to do this to prove myself. And as I go through the motions to take this road, I wonder, will I still feel this need when I am staring my own mortality in the face? | | | | | 10350 | | Sometimes I can almost feel the filth of humanity on me. I can't believe how many people are just barely self-aware, being driven almost entirely by basic instinctual urges. Being around other people is like trying to claw your way out of a sewer. | | | | | 10349 | | when i was about 11 or 12 i used to lie on a couch with my mom and watch some tv. couple times i was lying behind her and i became aroused as my groin was against her bottom. | | | | | 10348 | | getting pretty tired of this shit...why won't it just happen? | | | | | 10347 | | recently my boyfriend and i decided not to see each other and it was the best week i had in a very long time, so relaxing and carefree. now, we are back together and it seems like he is going to be so busy the next two months that he will not have time for me and the idea of not being together is more and more appealing. and i have no idea what to do... | | | | | 10346 | | Sometimes I wonder if there will ever be a time when I will be at peace. | | | | | 10345 | | This morning instead of going to school I beat my legs black and blue with a screwdriver. It felt like such a relief.
That can't be normal. | | | | | 10344 | | There is this girl who I know likes me. Its so obvious its hard to watch. Especially since I have no interest in her. She's not ugly but not attractive either. Bland personality, no idea how to talk and interact with people. And she tries too hard to be friendly. It's nothing personal, she's a loser. That sounds contradictory but I think it makes sense. Some people are just losers. Anyway, when I run into her she tries to start up a conversation and I usually barely aknowledge that she exists. Sometimes I just outright ignore her, pretend to be making a call or something. And she just tries harder. Its so pathetic. I know its bad to do that instead of just flat out telling her that I have no interest in being around her in any way but I just can't rationalize putting forth the effort. I just really don't care about her at all.
It's even more pathetic because that she hangs around a girl that I am interested in, one who is not only beautiful and athletic but witty and charming as well. Its even harsher because I met her through the lame girl. The few times we've all been together, the two of us almost completely ignore her, throwing a few token comments her direction in some half-hearted attempt to make her feel included. It's mean but I just can't seem to care. Like right now I'm thinking about if she read this and knew it was me or related this post to her feelings or whatever. I picture her crying. And I still don't give a rats ass. | | |
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