| | Thank you -- Message flagged. | | | 15876 | | SJB ... I'm thinking about you. Free as a fox. | | | | | 15875 | | I’m sorry I cannot do it anymore. I just can’t. I’m not sure why I’m apologizing to you. I can’t keep putting myself through this anymore. In the beginning it will be hard for me, not you, but I’ll get through it. I’d say I wish you’d leave me alone but you already do that. I’m the one that keeps begging for you to come back. I’m done. I am done. | | | | | 15874 | | The fact that you won’t be fucking random dudes from the internet is actually a good thing. The world did you a solid. You’d think you’d get that but you’re over there sulking like a teenager. Get the fuck over it. | | | | | 15873 | | It’s not the end of the world, but we’re getting there. | | | | | 15872 | | You ignored me
I gave up on you
You draw me in
I push away
You tell me to stay
I can’t anymore
You fall away
I follow you. | | | | | 15871 | | I fell in love with her or maybe just the idea of her and then she broke my heart and not once did I ever tell her I had feelings for her. The pain is completely my fault for rushing in and thinking I was being someone I’m not. On some level she knows that I care for her but not to the extent it was and still partiality is. I’ve come to realize she may never feel the way I do because she is surrounded by other men telling her how wonderful and funny and beautiful she is. I know she’s hurting and she covers it up and I just want to take care of her. A woman like her is impossible to find and I’ll keep fighting for her without vesting my entire heart until she’s ready because she does have feelings for me I’m normally not wrong, I think she just got scared. I think about her nonstop and I wish that would change so that if she never lets me I won’t get hurt again on some other level. Regardless of everything she has completely changed my life in so many ways. I’m sharing more of myself with the world now. She’s helped me discover parts of me that I thought were gone for ever. Maybe one day she’ll intiate the conversation before I do. My one wish is that I’d like to start over. I’m not who I was. | | | | | 15870 | | she comes back to tell me she's gone.
what a line.
she did too.
just let go she said.
and my travelling companies are ghosts and empty sockets.
pretty much.
| | | | | 15869 | | Its been a long time ... I have had no contact with SJB I am respecting her desire to not know of me. However, I did just have a little ray of light. I found something on line, that lead me to something she shares publicly - although I know she would rather have nothing shared with me again ever - still, I found it. I got to see her and hear her. I messed up, this I know. I will suffer for it, out of sight. But at least I heard her voice, and that is better than nothing. | | | | | 15868 | | well i might be the only person in the word here but it feels good to get it out. SJB ... for a smart enough person I am not at all tech savvy. So when SJB blocked me on LinkedIn, and when my other avenues to her were closed, I had no idea what happened. I actually worried she had died. So i did some digging and figured out where she worked and I actually called her. This was a few years ago. "Hi, I'm looking to speak with Sara" Then her voice, "This is Sara." I shrunk. I heard my voice, so timid, "Umm, hi its me ..." She told me she couldn't talk now, but I heard it in her voice she was pretending for the people at work listening, what she wanted to say was "fuck. you." Better to have loved and lost? I don't think so. On her birthday I put a little note out on twitter, you never know, she might look one day and see it and know that I care. She told me to 'just let go' and I never did. | | | | | 15867 | | Wow. I was the last person here, 5 years ago and I still think about SJB every day. I remain silent, peeking in when I can (too often) but never bothering her or upsetting her life. I was really close to her the other day, maybe 20 minutes away. Tough. | | |
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| | \di·vulge\, v. i. 1. To make known (something private or secret) 2. Archaic. To proclaim publicly
the idea is for anyone to anonymously confess to anything. it actually feels kind of good to know that someone will read it.
this is completely confidential. no information about you or your computer is stored. in fact, we only collect the text you type, the date, and a random number.
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